May arrives with the warmth of its days, with the blossoming of gardens, with colors that illuminate the landscape, and butterflies that flutter gracefully, heralding the beauty of simplicity. Everything around us seems to tell us it's time to bloom, to rise with energy and enthusiasm, and to smile more. However, what happens when we don't feel that inside? What happens when our soul doesn't resonate with this time?

We're not always okay. Sometimes, we just can't be. Not because we don't want to be, but simply because problems overwhelm us and the attitudes of others engulf us. Our bodies can't take it anymore; they need rest, they need time to think, timeless thinking. Our minds are exhausted.

Even if we don't always know the cause, we feel a deep weariness, as if we were carrying something invisible that weighs too much. Then, the moment comes to pause. To listen to ourselves, to stop. Today, I decided to do it! Today, I chose myself!

I let go of everything for a moment: the to-dos, the demands, the calls, the social media, other people's expectations—I let go without thinking. It wasn't easy, because I'm a responsible person, but it's necessary. Sometimes, the soul needs silence. It needs mental and emotional rest to understand what it's feeling, to understand the reason for so many accumulated emotions.

I stopped not to give up, but to rediscover myself. To feel. To cry. To hug myself without waiting for others to do so. To understand that I am the only one who should love myself unconditionally. And from that vulnerable place, I realized something: that choosing ourselves is not selfishness, it's self-love. It's respect! It's a form of quiet courage.

I know I'm not the only one. There are many who have felt this way: tired, overwhelmed, wanting to run away or simply disappear for a while or forever. Today I speak from my vulnerability to say that it's okay not to be okay. That it's okay to stop! That it's okay to do nothing! To sleep, to rest, not to shower, not to change. Because when we reconnect with ourselves, we begin to blossom from the depths of our being.

Because blossoming isn't always about smiling in the mirror. Sometimes, blossoming is about crying silently, letting go of guilt, acknowledging the pain, and still holding on with love. Today I choose myself! I listen to myself, I embrace myself, I recognize myself. And from there, from that intimate and real place, I begin to heal. I begin to blossom, even if it's slowly. Because that, too, is courage.

Written by:

Lesbia Álvarez

Author and Writer

Life and Transformation Coach